The Three Weeks- Musing of an AA baby

I am in my third week of alchohol free freedom. I am loving it! There is so much personal growth that I am having. I thought AA was just about not drinking, and controlling or managing that urge to drink.

I have gone to several AA meetings now. It is working for me in ways I could not have imagined.

There is a chance to look at my behavior, what I say, how I say it, even when not drinking. I was so tense, worried, felt inferior to everybody.

I thought I had control of alchohol. I wasn't a drunk who starts at 7am, and drinks a whole bottle of vodka in an hour. No, I bought (expensive) shots, one or 2 never more than that. Sure I would go back to the liquor store later. For more or for beer, wine.
But I thought I had control then, no, NOW I have control as long as I follow AA, go to meetings, and remember the 12 steps.

Musings of an AA baby.